Friday, February 17, 2012

The Contents Of My Purse

So I was hunting for a receipt tonight... couldn't find it... dumped my purse out (all 4 sections!) onto the couch and started going through things... realized the receipt I was looking for wasn't in my purse at all, but in the bag of things I purchased... HA! Here's a look at the clutter I carry around with me daily...

YIKES!


 


Tomorrow's mission.... shopping for supplies to make more soap... since I realized tonight I'm running low on soap AND I've got a few more types in mind to test out! Also, stopping at the pharmacy and correcting a mistake they made on #2's meds last week... thankfully we discovered the mistake today and not a week down the road when he's out of the correct meds!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Once Upon A Time...

Once upon a time I owned a successful business with hundreds of clients and even more customers. I went from having a home based business one year to the second best in the entire county in my third year in business... who knows where we would have been if I had continued to be in business through my fourth year, however I made the tough decision to close because we were in a tight spot financially at home, in addition to having two special needs children, it was just too much for us to handle at one time.

Within two months of closing my business down, my two special needs boys have both improved drastically, my 2 year old has finished potty training and I actually am enjoying my family.

A year and a half ago, I found myself suffering from what I believe is a delayed form of Post Partum Depression. It didn't hit me until my youngest (of 4 if that matters) weaned from nursing... then all of a sudden I began to get severely agitated to the point of near hysteria and just ready to be done with it all. After a few months of this I began to realize that my moods were peaking (or falling to all time lows) just before my periods... and I called my doctor and set up an appointment.. he put me on Lexapro, which I took for a few months, and it helped, no doubt.... Over that period of time I was able to learn to recognize the signs of my hormonal imbalance and focus on staying in charge...

Since then I have learned that I had a Progesterone imbalance, began using an over the counter progesterone cream for a couple weeks out of each cycle... and after two months of that, my hormone levels completely stabilized (as far as I can tell without having them actually tested that is...) and life has become great!

That's a very short version of the story... but since I've gotten my hormones straightened out and stopped working and have been able to focus on my family (where my focus SHOULD be)... my marriage has never been better, my relationships with my children are fantastic, and I've been able to focus on ME a bit...

I've been able to get back to the path I had been on many, many years ago before I mistakenly got involved with the wrong guy (who I eventually divorced) and allowed myself to be brainwashed into being nothing more than a built in babysitter and housemaid.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I Wear My Life...

Come close, just look at me, can you see
That new England breeze blowin' through my hair
Stare into my eyes, can't you see the endless sky
Peekin' through the cracks of that abandoned barn
Got my first kiss there

My victories, my broken dreams, you don't have to look too far
Like an old pair of shoes, like a tattoo, sometimes like a scar

I wear my life, right on my sleeve
Who I am ain't no mystery
Where I've been has left a mark on me
No, I'm not one to try and hide
Or keep it all locked up inside
I wear my life

I'm like an old scrapbook, not afraid to let you look
Every day's a brand new page I can't wait to cut and paste
This picture that I see, right now of you and me
Two people so in love even time can't make it fade

My smiling face, gives me away, yeah everybody knows
When you feel something this real, boy, it's bound to show

I wear my life, right on my sleeve
Who I am ain't no mystery
Where I've been has left a mark on me
No, I'm not one to try and hide
Or keep it all locked up inside
I wear my life

You can see right through me. I'm transparent
I don't just live it

I wear my life, right on my sleeve
Who I am ain't no mystery
Where I've been has left a mark on me
No, I'm not one to try and hide
Or keep it all locked up inside
I wear my life

~JoDee Messina